this journey

So in March I lost my job...let go, canned, fired, ...etc. It was a relief but left me feeling that I lost my identity. I April I ingnored my 40th birthday.  In May I did the most unexpected thing, I joined a gym. Not only did I join a gym, but I signed up for personal training sessions. At the time I wasn't sure what I was doing or that there was a connection between the transformation at the gym and the transformation in my self, but there definately is. So now it's July 1st and I'm several weeks into this journey of transformation. The emotions I am experiences are broad and funny, overwhelming and heart-wrenching and I needed an outlet...so here it is, Despartely Seeking Me...who ever I turn out to be...